Month: May, 2014

freezing time & blue shag carpet   {downers grove photographer} Image

freezing time & blue shag carpet {downers grove photographer}

May 6, 2014

Sometimes I get a little personal here on the ol’ blog.  I’m not very good at it really ~ I don’t consider myself a “blogger” per se, but every once in awhile, some of my stories come out mixed in between the stories I tell about other people through their images.  Sometimes it just feels good to write.  Even though today as I start, I don’t know exactly what I’m going to say.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how fast time goes.  I’m sure you know what I’m talking about.  A lot of things have been happening at our house that have probably caused me to be thinking about this more lately.  Like the fact that a couple of months ago, my husband, too young to be facing such a thing, suffered two strokes.  He is doing marvelously, praise God!  It all was quite scary, and I still can’t quite believe it happened, but they were minor, and we caught them, and he is taking his little baby aspirins and feeling fantastic.  It is a bit bizarre since he really has been super healthy up until this point (we don’t really know what caused them), and some of you may know that I myself had a couple of hemorrhagic strokes followed by brain stem surgery a few years ago (actually, at the same time of year that my husband took his trip to the hospital ~ around my birthday ~ weird), so it is just crazy to me that now both of us have had this happen at such young ages.  There’s got to be a funny saying in there somewhere…  (a version of me telling my stroke story is actually on you tube if you want to hear some of the cool parts 😉 )

We also have been looking for a house.  We’ve been renting a cute little cape cod since we moved to Illinois from California almost 3 years ago.  While we absolutely love our neighborhood and the character of this place, the 5 of us are a bit on top of each other and ready to take on a little more space that we can call our own and make into our home.  We had trouble finding something at first, but we think we found a great fixer-upper not very far from where we are currently ~ a solid home that just needs its 70’s decor and fixtures updated.  I like blue, but the cobalt blue shag may have to go… It is so exciting to be thinking about how this could be a home we are in for years to come.  We have moved every 3 to 4 years for the past 20 years.  Time has kept on moving even though we haven’t really been digging our roots in any one place.  I’m ecstatic to dig in some roots.

In looking for a house, I realized how our oldest is going to be going off to college so soon.  That she really won’t have many years truly living at this new house.  That feels so crazy strange.  And makes me all the more just want to get in it fast and help her to build many memories there before she is off to school or wherever else her dreams take her.  So that it feels like her “home” before she leaves, so she will always want to come back.  *Sigh*… so enough about that for now.

So in thinking about all this sentimental, time passing quickly stuff, it just reminds me that I want to live intentionally.  To take it all in.  Maybe this is part of the reason I love photography so much ~ it freezes everything.  Stops time in a way, which sometimes I wish I really could do, just for a few minutes anyway.  Because as much as I treasure each moment and don’t want it to pass too quickly, I also know that what is coming next could be beyond my wildest dreams.  And I have been given the opportunity to make the most with my time, with who I am, with what I do, and I sure as heck want to strive to make the best of it.  To touch the most people that I can, to show the most love that I can, and to be as contagious as I can with all of that.  Because sometimes, let’s be honest, its enough just to get through the day, right?  Its hard to focus on anything else.  But each day is a new day to try and make each moment count, because I have the power to do that, even though sometimes it feels like everything is out of control.  It’s not.

Since this is a photography blog, I thought I would share this iPhone photo of my hubby and I last fall on our way to a costume party… because it is the most recent shot I have of the two of us together… I need to freeze us a little more often.

Ben & me costume party

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